My Future Self, Refused
Novelette 9,113 words Recommended by 3 award/anthology sources
"This much was clear. At some point in my future, I would have access to a time machine. This was a ridiculous sentence and a tragically irrelevant concern while my wife Judi was on the floor and possibly dying, but there it was: nonsense, in the presence of death. This was the central tragic absurdity of the day."
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death-of-a-loved-onesuicide
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